Cooking to clean your system

There are a few things i want to blog about today, but knowing me i will only get through one topic. i finished my full week of just RAW food and passed with flying colors. i was not hungry and i was not sick, a few times my organs were tender but that is just the toxins being released from all the bad stuff i had eaten trying to get out of my system. i loved it i felt lighter and more alive. When i was younger my mom made my family do a raw food detox at least once a month. i didnt really know what for then but i know now and i will be keeping up with it. The day right after my Raw week i went to my in laws for fajitas, and i LOVE me some steak so naturally i had just a plate of fajita meat with the beans, no tortilla because i have been very good about being strictly Gluten Free. The next day i did not feel good, its my own fault i should not have gone from Raw food to fajita meat the next day, so now i am trying to get back on track, and what i have noticed is i am reaching for more Raw foods  now on my own. i feel better when i eat better. i still have not reached my goal weight but, i do feel lighter.

i was craving a way to put all my yummy veggie together and eat them at once, so i looked for ways to make some sort of bread... and i found one. it is absolutely delicious and you can edit the formula to make it sweet bread or thinner to make a pizza crust. i have already made it three times.
The Rawtarian

silver lining

Things have calmed down a tiny bit in the trauma department, and by calm down i mean my cousin is once again heavily sedated. as long as she is feeling little to no pain it eases my heart and I'm sure brings my uncle the tiniest sense of peace.

i blogged a few weeks ago about my parents being in the country (they live in Romania at the moment i don't know if i mentioned that) my father and littlest sister are getting ready to head back tomorrow and i thought i should update on my diet that my mom has been so helpful with... i honestly could not be happier! in 3weeks i have lost 5lbs, and its not just the weight i am delighted with but i have lost 3 inches around my middle i can finally SEE the difference. i did not get a gym membership i am not "working my ass off" and i am not on any pills or juices or weird serums. All i am doing is using the My fitness pall app on my phone (get it! its amazing! My Fitness Pal) to restrict my calorie intake to between 800-1000 calories a day. i am eating only one cooked meal with an animal protein (i love meat, good hormone free meat is SO good for your body) a day so most of the foods i eat are raw, such as salads and veggies with humus. Nothing fancy just enough to not be hungry, which i haven't been hungry. I have COMPLETELY removed all addicting foods such as bread, sugar, dairy, caffeine and alcohol. i have not in anyway touched wine, beer, or liquor in three weeks, not only do i feel fantastic but it has helped my getting healthy process tremendously. i cant believe i didn't know that the key to wight loss was all in getting rid of the sauce. i was eating healthy and running but i was still having drinks on the weekend which was 2 steps forward and 12 steps back. So my tip to everyone trying to get healthy, in shape, and loose weight. Keep moving and stop drinking.


In the middle of all the family chaos i wanted to cook, cooking brings me a little harmony so i made some raw brownies with raspberry sauce. Very simple, it also takes a cup of dates but i threw the bag away before taking the picture. So you dump all ingredients into a food processor, smoosh into a baking dish, then let it set in the fridge for a few hrs. All i did for the raspberry sauce was process fresh raspberries with some agave and pour on top. it looks like meatloaf but i promise they are brownies.

Never focused

Seriously I am the worst blogger ever, I really hope I don't have any devoted readers because I just can't seem to focus on keeping on track with this thing. Which is ironic because I always have so much to say.

I can't remember where I left off so I will just tell you what is going on now. last weekend I went on a family reunion coast trip with my family in law, I'm sure in reading the word in law most people cringe a little well don't worry because I happen to be one very lucky girl who has found the family in law of her dreams. They are fun, loving, supportive and very accepting. My fiancé is a very successful person who has accomplished all of his goals before the age of 25 and I am well, slacking a bit in the motivation department, so for my in laws to still love me as sweetly as they do really is a blessing.

Yes I did say coast trip, yes that does mean bikinis and no I did not meat my weight loss goal, big shocker. I was a little self conscious but nothing a few beers can't fix. For the most part I avoided gluten by bringing my own sprouted corn tortillas for sandwiches, I also brought a bunch of mason jars full of detox and green tea too keep my metabolism up. The good thing about trips especially coast trips is that you tend to keep active. Even. Simple game of catch phrase kept me on my feet, an laughing till I hurt.

My parents had arrived from Romania (where then live for now) a few days before we left for the coast, so my mom along with her natural dieting was waiting for me when I got home. My mother is one of the smartest people I know when it comes to eating/cooking/living healthy. If there was every anything wrong with my sisters and I she would turn to herbs to solve the problem and it always worked. Growing up lots of people have given my family grieve for our unique ways of eating, but my mom has yet to be wrong. So now that she is here I am on a very very strict diet of only organic, healthy foods. No sugars no gluten or bread type products, no dairy, and limiting the amount of food I eat. Basically getting rid of all addiction foods as my dad likes to put it.

Americans in general tend to over eat, the portions that are served as huge. For example one of my favorite meals is a #2 at McDonalds which is TWO cheese burgers fries and drink, then the big Mac is two burgers on top of each other. We all just stuff our faces till we can't eat thinking the feeling of being full Is the sign of stopping, when really we should stop way before feeling full. With in three days of eating only heathy foods I have seen the difference in how much I can eat now.

If anyone lives in the Dallas Tx area and is interested in seeing what the Raw food movement is all about check this place out. Formally know as Bliss now known as Be Raw. DELICIOUS

20lbs of WhAt!?

So i come from a family that if you packed each of them into their own suitcase, they would meet the 50lbs weight limit. Not exactly but you get my point. i am the shortest and the "heaviest" which is understandable. i used to dance, (ballet, tap, jazz) all the time, i also did gymnastics, and with musical theater you are always moving. My activity level slowed down when i moved to Peru due to the fact that the activities were not as available, but i also blame my lack of motivation. i guess i became angry/depressed/rebellious because i had to move away from my life in the Sates. Also, something i don't usually like to mention to people but this is all about being open and hoping to connect with others... i have chronic knee pain, every day all day they both hurt. it feels almost like 24/7 growing pains. My dad and grandfather both had knee surgery and i keep thinking one day i will get back on stage and win "so you think you can dance" (ya i dream big) so i have been avoiding the surgery talk for as long as i can. At about 15-16 i was taking about 10-15 hrs of dance a week (roughly 3 5hr classes) along with doing musical theater and the pain became so bad i just started skipping classes and giving up, i didn't want to be that girl who was so good at the beginning of class and now cant even do a split leap so i just quit.

Thats when i want to say my active-ness slowed down, then on top of that when i moved back to the States i was 21 so drinking came into the picture. We all know that new drinkers start of with the WORST drinks, the ones that are LOADED with sugar and carbonated, but only $1.99 at the gas stations. So lets recap, no more activity, and lots of sugary alcoholic beverages, it was also my first time living on my own so my kitchen was stocked with all the cheapest food i could find. Nothing cheap comes with out a HIGH toll on your health... i went from being 5'3"100-ish lbs to 5'3" almost 140lbs in about two years. At first i didn't worry about it because being as small as i always had been putting on weight never seemed like an option, people always said i could use some "meat on my bones". i also didn't mind going up a bra size, that didn't seem so bad, but when i tried to put on my favorite pare of jeans that i have had since i was 16 and the zipper ripped right off as i tried to pull them up. That is when i realized there was an issue. i had a double chin and rolls i could hide multiple pencils in.

i know there might be some of you who are reading this and thinking i am shallow and stupid for feeling the way i do about my body, but the thing is every person feels different about their body, some might be wanting gain weight. This is just the story about how i FEEL about MY body.

i have been doing a bunch of different diets, mostly with healthy and organic foods, raw foods, juicing ect. Just trying to find a good balance of calories, protein and sugar intake. i think i am doing pretty good, the only complaint i have is how much time i spend on the toilet now. Ya i know thats its a good thing, but dang the more healthy food i eat the more time i spend ToiletTweeting. All kinds of big corporations and even talk show doctors want to get up in front of people and tell them how good cleansing and detoxing your system is for you and should be done once a month, but none of them have the guts to flat out say YOU WILL POOP SO MUCH. Everyone is so scared of poop, and pooping that we ignore it all together, well i promise you i will not be shy about it, so far every diet i have done even the random $19.99 bottles of "Burn Fat Fast" Make. You. Poop...  but i did hear on the news, (ya the news talks about poop sometimes) that everyone has the potential to retain up to 20lbs of poo in their intestines. SICK! but i guess all my toilet time is worth it.