chaos

A lot has been happening in the past few weeks. My fiance and i were looking for a new house, then he had to get surgery on his wrist to fix an injury he sustained last year. That same day i received some very bad news about my little cousin, she was in a car accident involving two 18wheelers and is now in critical condition. Most families when they hear news like this it brings them together and makes them stronger, but in my families case i don't think it is possible for us to get any closer or stronger as a whole. She has been in the hospital since Friday (4 days) and every single day there has been 10-20 people there for support. After a while the nurses had to come out and tell us that "only immediate family can stay". We all looked at each other and wondered what that meant? as far as we were all concerned we were ALL immediate family. Even for my 24th birthday which was in the middle of the week everyone still cleared the day to have a birthday party with cake and gifts just like we have done my whole life. Every birthday, graduation, big announcements, no matter how big or small the whole family gathers. When i first moved back in the country i was alone no friends no job hadn't started school yet and didnt even have a car. My aunt and uncle let me live with them and my cousins let me use their car so i could have a job. i cant imagine not dropping my whole life to lend a hand or be there for any member of my family and it shocks me that there are people who arnt close to their relatives, but i guess that is just how i was raised and i feel so blessed that my upbringing was so focused on family first because i would not be the person i am today if it wasnt for that mentality.

All for one and one for All